'omewrecker

It's weird, whenever I used to think about spending late morning laying in your bed and that room and the yellow light coming in through the window, I would get severely depressed, so I've pushed those thoughts out of my head and forbade myself from thinking them.. it's been a while now, and in light of everything, for the first time I can think of them and be okay-- ive always known it was just the "idea" of you that Ive been in love with but couldnt help myself, but i guess it is true that time does heal wounds and eventually you make better memories to overwrite what you thought would forever be the best days of your life. It's a nice feeling. I guess I'm just really disappointed in you, and given the circumstances, its true that many actions can be forgiven and even approved of, but it doesnt give you free license to fuck things up with other peoples lives. i dont know man. "i want to believe."

woah

saw a band you would really like today, but i guess we dont talk anymore oops

o ~ well

no matter how down ur feeling, beatles always save the day -- thanx parents

summ11

Hey whoops hi everyone -- still here. can anyone even still read this? does anyone still read this? i think by now ive lost u all, which is good, so i can just write (almost) wwhatever. surprisingly this blog still gets a lot of hits, but they all get forwarded to the "new place." a few things:

1. YO OTTAWA U SERIOUS? O WELL ill go and use your drink tickets anyways, can refuse a free drink. on a brighter note, Dragoncon, here I come. BRING ON THE ELVES

2. kind of sucks that you can just straight up ignore me after all that time and shit that happened, but whatever as long as youre happy i guess, which is what you deserve. i did try though, just wish i knew what the fuck was going on sometimes (7 months???). oh well, c'est la vie, and being down is good inspiration for new material, right? "Friends forever" yaa sure..

3. i think i will be home soon though for a visit within the month, so im really glad ill get to see a bunch of people who i really miss. hopefully get to see some shows, definitely go to disneyland.. get some corndogs. idk. CA is normally really annoying to me but im pretty excited for this trip. Now that i dont really "live" there it makes it have so much more value or something. JC MY HOMIE U if youre reading this u better be in LA sometime soon so we can finish silent hill. anyways, keep an eye out, ill let yall know when plans are finalized.

4. PVD is weird, empty, good, bad, i dont even know. I think im really into it, but we'll have to see. Made some fund$ but theyre starting to run low. plane tickets are so expensive... luv ma homies but need more friends that will actually go places.

5. gonna try to update this more often, good journal source now that (i dont think) anybody really is paying attention/has access to this anymore.

6. somebody hire me

also, watch this, i dont really know why. that voice..

CHRISTMA

lets u realize how much some of your distant friends actually care about you and how some of your best friends simply dgaf. i love you guys (most of you_).

TO A HEALTHY NEW YEAR~ THIS BLOG IS NOT DEAD

HUR

HEY

dont need u to cut my hair anymore

but that dont mean i dun miss u

RhoooodEEEE ISland

old friends where r u

hope everyones doing ok

gonna be dope

feelin good, life is good, gonna work hard! yes! go animation

sats break

who was dat? ooooh, curls

AND LOCH RAVEN OH MY GOd

1st Fridayz

1. moth hangin out on my finger, rite now

2. scottish accents

3. so many girls with dark lipstick, ooooohhhh

4. j00n

home improvement

Ohhhhh

this person..

also, shugo tokumaru. feels good 2 b home

home in providence

cartarker/akira#1/secret clubhouse

i love this place

h 'ooops

hii blogg

uusiickkkkk

this time every year uck gucuk uckuck, i could be sweaty and gross in palm springs by now, playing golf or something.

SEMI-CROSS-COUNTRY TRIP THE SECOND:

LOUISIANA

really green, really wet air. also, new orleans is really dope and i need to go back there. land of gumbo and pralines.

this is where zach lives

junior project?

MISSISSIPPI

Lots of good grass/good rivers.

funny monuments, all over

this is where zachs parents live

ludy is still keepin it real

also, there were cats

we drove an empty space van, which had a short echo inside

action shot starring zach diaz

TEXAS

everything in texas is slightly slanted, and breaks down well into horizontal segments

inconspicuous van

NEW MEXICO

ive always enjoyed the southwest desert, so so pretty. Finally got to visit Albuquerque, which ive wondered about since 6th grade when i discovered Weird Al. It was aight. Reaching RISD-levels of tiredness.

as a safe and fun way to pass time when zach was sleeping i took a lot of pictures of myself driving. i have a lot of good ones, and i think when i drive my eyes become slightly cockeyed.

ARIZONA

then suddenly we were in Arizona and basically home. phone battery died but managed to document potential spot for shooting this summer? dessert monster project 2010.

AND THEN:

now i am home and things are nice and the weather is super perfect. the trip was ridiculously fast -- left wednesday at 7pm got in friday at 9am. liike, more pics/same pics will probably resurface on facebook eventually. currently readapting to funny home lifestyle with parents/trying to convince myself i can be a productive person this summer. HOPEFULLY I CAN SELL FROZEN YOGURT FOR MONEY. nothing too crazy on the radar, but EDC will be good, as well as a few shows to look forward too (Captain Ahab hellloo), plus disneyland already. next stop: fabric district to buy lots and lots of faux fur. also, i still have not had in-n-out or Salsa & Beer, so lets get on that guys.

South headin West

Strong lack of internet access lately since leaving providence, but summer should provide ample time for posts and digital catching up. Currently in Mississippi, drivin cross-country. Blues capital of the world and its been 16 days since I've touched a guitar. Times are hard, but whiskey is really cheap here. In other news, had some dope gumbo. Lots and lots of rain, but also lots and lots of sun. Also, dogs. Should be taking off today, home in time for the weekend fun time

☁ 。☼‿☼ 。☁

Also

Got tired of typing in bombfrog all the time so the password is just bf now. saving some keystrokes, tryin prevent future arthritis for all u guys out there

Off Broadway

finally

free

One Week to Go

My final cut is due in 7 days (6 now?), which is stressful, to say the least. I know ill be able to pull through but im sure if ill feel really happy with it. its weird, ive never cared TOO much but i realized that people are actually going to see this stuff now so i feel a lot more.. self aware?

Anyways, school aside, I almost know where I'm living next year. 95% chance I'll be home this summer, so fun things will be happening. Right now im aiming for mid-june arrival? Im actually really excited for this summer, even though it will probably be spent working an irrelevant job for minuscule amounts of money. but drums. lots and lots of drums. alllll day, in a hot garage. and driving, oh my god.

last week I got the chance to meet with Takeshi Murata, one of my favorite contemporary animators, and it was probably one of the most reassuring things ive had in a while. Hes actually a RISD grad from.. 97 I believe? who is doing quite well simply making limited edition animations and selling them to galleries/collectors. It's an unusual place for an animator, and its nice to know that there is potentially something outside of the commercial world and the festival world post-risd. if youre good enough. by the way, if you get the chance too see his stuff definitely check it out--but not shitty quality youtube rips. i never really appreciated a lot of his stuff (like Melter) until seeing it in good resolution. And theres so much of his stuff that isn't available online-- his more mediocre stuff is up, but if you can find a copy of Cone Eater its mmmmm delicious (soundtrack by Robert Beatty, from hairpolice/ex-wolf eyes i think). But yeah, Takeshi was basically the nicest man on the world and I wish I could be his best friend. Something about late 90s rhode island was just spitting out all these guys who are the sweetest people youll ever meet who made a pretty good name for themselves. I wish it was more like that now. RISD appears to be on more of a stint since the 2000s.... i guess theres Seth McFarlane? Yeah..

Hey, this is like the most stuff i've written on here in months probably. Most likely because i've spent the past few weeks holed up not doing anything or talking to people trying to finish this train wreck, aaand my camera is still non-functional. I have so much to put up on ahayhoy too but ive just been so preoccupied... But yeah! In one short (long) (short) week ill be oeveeerr and ill be floatin down a river sippin mixed drinks. hopefully. guys, lets go to hurricane harbor this sumer.